[ Sharon hesitates, then moves in to give him a hug. Holden is breaking. She's seen it with agents in training and prisoners before. In agents, they could be let go before the damage became permanent. But Holden was more like a prisoner. He wouldn't have any relief from this. Any reprieve. ]

I'm sorry, Holden. If I'd known she was important to you, I wouldn't have poisoned her. I'd have chosen someone else. Anyone else.

But you're right. You should take it easy. If we want to bring Akane back, we have to win the game. It... might be best if you didn't know what we talk about here. Tell Critter to vote randomly on your behalf. That way, you won't know. You won't have that weight to bear.

[ And he can stop fucking up by telling people what the fuck he knows. ]