I shudder even just trying to imagine it. Even victory wouldn't be worth the price of that torture. [looking more disturbed at this prospect than he did at all during his own six hour death]

I can only blame myself. I should have learned by now that good intentions only lead to terribly dull outcomes. [deliberate side-eye at Sanae here yeah he got that whole lecture about never giving up hope in people and he is choosing to ignore it]