It was a despicable habit, but they were a psychotropic depressant/anti-psychotic. Never meant to be ingested, only used topically... and so when the great undoing occurred, he went into severe withdrawal and became responsible for half of the losses I've implied.

To be honest... I've had better companionship here - from you, Ciel, Kyouko, Sayaka, I won't say something inane like "everyone" but quite a few people - than I had remaining to me at home by now. I've literally outlived my usefulness there. I don't care about whether I personally can get home or come back to life at this point. What's going on here... is the only thing that still matters very much to me.